Sometimes we meet people who bring out the best in us, we call them friends. Other times, we meet people we can comfortably ugly cry around, we call them best friends.

Ezioma Kalu.


Quinn keeps lists of everything—from the days she’s ugly cried, to “Things That I Would Never Admit Out Loud,” to all the boys she’d like to kiss. Her lists keep her sane. By writing her fears on paper, she never has to face them in real life. That is, until her journal goes missing…

An anonymous account posts one of her lists on Instagram for the whole school to see and blackmails her into facing seven of her greatest fears, or else her entire journal will go public. Quinn doesn’t know who to trust. Desperate, she teams up with Carter Bennett—the last known person to have her journal—in a race against time to track down the blackmailer.

Together, they journey through everything Quinn’s been too afraid to face, and along the way, Quinn finds the courage to be honest, to live in the moment, and to fall in love.


First of all, I’m a hugeeeee fan of romance books. And second of all, this book gave me everything it should give and then more! I didn’t know ‘Ugly crying’ was a thing, though I’d done that so many times in the past. Thank you Quinn Jackson for the enlightenment.

Quinn is an eighteen year old high school girl, who has an obsession with making to-do lists. Her journal is like her foundation that tells a story of what she has been through and who she is. And so when it gets missing, she nearly loses her sanity. In fact, she freaks out.

You made a home in my head, and no matter how many evictions I send, you won’t leave… I don’t ever want you to leave…

Joya Goffney, Excuse Me While I Ugly Cry

She doesn’t plan for there to be a mix up the day Carter and Auden, her class and group mates visit her home, doesn’t plan for Carter to mistake her journal with his, and then go home with Quinn’s entire life, while leaving his own journal behind.

Quinn thinks everything will be fine once she gets back her journal from Carter the next day, but things would take a very interesting turn when Carter loses the journal, and an unknown Instagram user starts blackmailing Quinn to do all the items in her to-do lists.

This is an incredibly awesome read because it explores important topics like race, love, blackmail and truth. For a young, black girl like Quinn, using derogatory words or sentences to describe her fellow black people is a grave sin, which could cause her to break friendships and even ghost her best friend.

There are enough closed doors and glass ceilings in the world. My comfort zone shouldn’t be one of them.

Joya Goffney, Excuse Me While I Ugly Cry

I love that the missing journal helps Quinn understand herself more, make quality friendships, and even wriggle out of her shell, where she self-sabotages herself everyday, thinking she’s not worth it. The missing journal helps Quinn become whom she never thought she could be. She becomes more brave and expressive and even faces her fears.

I definitely enjoyed reading this book. I love that the characters are relatable, and I love that they are highly flawed, with each of them having a dysfunctional family. I love the flow of events, the description and narrative techniques.

I had so much fun reading this YA Romance novel, and I hope to read more in future. So, it’s definitely a 5/5 book for me.

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